I saw this tree in a park the other day..standing alone! The tree standing there strong made me think. What would this lonely tree think?? Would it think that I am glad to be alone – no one to take the water that I need, no one to take the nutrients I need from the soil. I don’t have to waste my energy on fighting for my daily survival. So what if I don’t have anyone to talk to but at least I am free to do what I want to without being judged or have too many parameters that would define what and how I should do things. OR would it think I don’t have anyone; I have to stay here alone and no one to challenge me to do better.
Think about it – kind of how we would view our lives at different points of time. We love having people around and having them to love, to hate, to compete. But sometimes, we wish we could do things on our own in our own way and not let others define how we should act or live. We just wish we could just follow our instincts, be able to show our emotions as they are and not be shunned down for it. That lonely tree can show its emotions and follow its instincts since there is no one to tell it to behave in a certain way, on the other hand, it does not have anyone around who would be there to see when it is happy or when it is sad. Maybe as humans, we want to share our lives but how much of sharing of our lives causes unhappiness???
Should the lonely tree be happy about being alone or sad that it does not have anyone near?
I always talk about emotions. And sometimes, I feel each emotion takes up a lot of my life! I look at people around me and looks like they have a check on their emotions, a control over what will or will not consume them. How do they do it when I can’t??
My friend once told me your face immediately reflects what you are feeling. And I feel it is because anything that may be happy, sad, angry takes over me. It engulfs me so much that I can only think about that emotion for a long time..particularly if it is something that has hurt me. I can’t let go of it. I have to fight it so much that it takes a lot of my energy.
And then I see people who have so much control over it. It is like they have figured out life and how to live it without getting affected much. They have a tight hold of what they feel and will never do anything that will make them feel vulnerable.
So my question is how are they like that and I am like this?? What made them and what made me??
There is a bend around the corner,
The one I have feared for a long time,
I take one step forward but…
Take two back because I am afraid ,
I am afraid of what I might encounter at the bend,
My mind is always filled with “what if it is something bad?”
My fear over shadows my willingness,
My doubts cloud up the road in which I am standing right now,
This dense fog is not allowing me to see,
The confusion makes me just stand where I am,
But I know if I have to touch my dream,
If I have to find what I have lost,
I have to move forward and…………..
KEEP GOING and brave myself to go around the bend!!
I hummed a tune today,
And I wonder for how long I haven’t sung a song,
There were times when I was happy like a bird,
Flying away to horizon,
Singing from my heart,
Didn’t have a care in the world..
I smiled today,
And I wonder for how long I haven’t smiled from my heart,
I used to laugh till tears dropped out of my eyes,
I was happy like a baby,
And have joy to spread around,
Didn’t know anything wrong in the world..
I promise to turn my life around,
And feel happiness again!
Feeling alone in midst of a crowd,
I laugh with everyone but my heart is somewhere else,
I speak but the words don’t belong to me,
I smile but the smile is meant for someone else,
Would I feel the same way if you were around?
You would make me feel that I meant something, not just anyone,
You could bring a genuine smile on my face,
You are the one who understands me,
You are the one I am looking for.
But where are you?
Have I not found you yet?
Or have I lost you?
Or am I still waiting for you…???
Everyone has a story in their life, which they may or may not share with others. I have met many people in my life who have their own share of experiences. A visit to an orphanage made me realize it even deeper. The person managing it had a story that I have only read or seen in movies. But as he was telling his story and the reason behind him working for an orphanage rather than a comfortable job that would fetch him good money, he made a statement – These kids here have a much more sadder and deeper story than me, knowing that makes me forget what I am going through and feel blessed I have been chosen to help these kids.
From young kids to old people, everyone has a story. Life is full of stories; some so painful that are stashed so far behind in our memory that we wish they never show their face again. Some stories so happy that we want them to repeat over and over again. Some stories that we feel ashamed of, some that we are proud of. But all of them make what we are today, how we define ourselves today.
Do you have a story?
As I listen to many conversations here, one thing I realize is that for most people, their job is a means of bringing in money. From the time, I have come here, people have told… you should just take a job here , a job there but I don’t relate to it. Yes, do I have the financial stability right now to course me through a few years? Yes. But my job for me has never been a means to make money. If it was, I wouldn’t have left my 6 figure salary to get into teaching and earn one-sixth of it.
My job is my passion and will remain so. I always knew from my childhood that my need is to create a difference in at least one person’s or child’s life. And from the time, I was at school, I made sure I volunteered at shelters or orphanages.
Teaching has been my bread and butter, not in terms of income but in terms of satisfying my soul. A child who could not read English ends up writing a beautiful essay, that is life changing for me. I believe there is no selfless deed..and mine is selfish too….this gives me happiness. For different people, it may be different things.
I am not making any judgments..i just want to know if you think of your job or work as something else other than a source of income.
Just curious to know various perspectives 😉